dear nekoweb diary
the past 2 weeks have been a surprisingly delightful ride. i came into nekoweb with no prior knowledge of coding (i'm not counting taking a few html lessons many years ago lol) and i thought making a site would feel like pulling teeth. even with using templates and widgets made by other people, it's still been a bit difficult to do exacly what i want. despite that struggle, i'm having a BLAST! every struggle promises a reward at the end and everytime i get something to work, i pump my first in the air and jump like a character at the end of a happy coming-of-age movie in a freezeframe LMAO
this period also marks the first time in a long time where i'm legit hyperfixated on something. the last time i was hyperfixated on something, i read all of the chainsaw man manga in about 3 days and then read all of fire punch and goodbye, eri and look back, and i developed a photographic memory of the csm anime. i had a hyperfixation on deltarune when chapters 3 and 4 were released earlier this year, but it was kinda brief in comparison.
something about being on the indie web after hearing about it only in passing feels surreal. i've become so obsessed that i've been daydreaming about coding and web design in the middle of my classes, and then i come home after class to put my plans in motion. i wrote my site info page last night and i got so emotional as i wrapped up the final paragraphs. after a few rough weeks of tension and falling out in my personal life, making a site and joining the nekoweb discord has widened my scope and made me feel a lot better. i got so wrapped up in my own world that i forgot there's even more of the world outside of my bubble. it felt a bit like the world was ending, and current events haven't been improving my mood at all, so the knowledge that the world is so much bigger and i am so much smaller than i realized felt like a breathe of fresh air.
i know i'm just a drop in the bucket of nekoweb alone, not to mention the entire indie web, but i truely feel like i'm part of something magical. the excitement and creativty here is infectious, and it makes me so eager to work on this every day and see how i end up making it my own. rather than a cog going through the motions, i feel like a person again :)